A Rant Before the 1A Midterms

by Backstab

I got so much to study now it's not funny.  My first midterm is this Thursday, then 3 more next week and 1 more two weeks from now. I think it's now time for me to study like mad.

I'm beginning to dislike math.  Sure, everyone says I'm good at math every since I went to CTK and then to St. Robs. Me owning in this contest and that contest, or that test, or Grade 12 Math etc.  Man I was a such a dumbass.  I just realized how bad I am at math now.  I now know that I have to TRY HARD to get an 80+ in calculus. Before I used to be able to half-ass myself in Rovere's class and do like 3 questions in finite and get like perfect or near perfect on every test.  Now if I do that I'll get like 55-65.  Damn, taking 4 math courses (Calculus, Linear Algebra, Discrete Math, Physics (physics is all math)) is such a killer. I only had what... maximum 2 math course per semester back when I was in high school? (OAC Physics and Algeo)

Now I fucking have 4, FOUR, and the materials go by about twice as fast as it was in high school.  2 x 4 = 8, so eight times as fast as what it was before and this shit is just flying straight through my brain as if someone stabs you up the ass while you're out cold.  And you know what, every lecture, I sit in class, listen to the prof for 5 minutes and then I'll start daydreaming because I don't understand most of the shit.  I get carried away because the prof writes so much irrelevant shit on the board and I'll just start copying notes and daydreaming. It's so routine it sucks. I have come to the conclusion that I'm more a visual learner than an audio/oral learner.  I need examples or I can't do shit in math.  So basically I have to go back home, read over the notes and try to learn everything, then do the homework.  Plus I can't prove anything either.  I thought I am da shit at proofs when I can prove congruent triangles in like 30 seconds while the rest of the class spends 5-10 minutes on it and still doesn't get it.  Man I was again, such a moron.  Those weren't even real proofs. Welcome to Classical Algebra/Discrete Math.  The proofs are really screwing me up; I can only do like the easiest proofs. My contingency plan on the midterm is if I don't get the proof, I'll just write the given, and write something divides something and just write a few statements and theorems.  That way I'll get like 1/5 at least.

All the people in my program are so damn smart, and more than half of those are nerds.  I miss jokers in my classes, people like Alex and Jazz make things interesting and keeps it alive.  And you know what else is bad? Why is my class so goddamn competitive. Like WTF?? A lot of the people in the class were like, "OK I need to get 90 on this midterm so I'll be at least Top 5 in the class," I mean, who the fuck cares. Really, this is 1A term, ONE EH (I am Canadian). I talked to one of my SE friends who live  upstairs and at lunch he was saying how someone in my class was saying how Software Engineering sux because people in it are dumbasses. Well, if I knew who said it, I'd tell him to "fuck off". Just because you are 'superior' in Calculus or Discrete Math doesn't mean that you're better.  A person who gets 100 in CS doesn't really mean jackshit, it just means that they studied hard. A lot of people code using the step by step way, like myself, who types 5 lines, runs the program, debug if there are errors, then goes back and types another 5 lines etc.  But you can't do that on the midterm. So it'll definitely be a disadvantage on tests and exams.

Oh god, I'm rambling. Time to study for physics midterm. I've been told and I've witnessed that the past midterms are harder or just as hard as the SIN Test. Ouch.